Guys, I'm in emotional turmoil in these couple of days. I need to concentrate and think about some important issues in the real world and sort things out, trying not to screw up or make things worse.

As a result it may take me a while to reply your PMs to me. I will still be able to answer your request if you need certain access to a certain place ;) , and I will do direct links and updates and MOD-works (just to keep myself occupied). So I'm not like totally disappering.

Apology to sex maniac and mppdrake. :embarasse

I hope you can get those issues straightened out so you may once again be the Mod man!

I'm still the MOD man. I just need some time to concentrate on certain personal issues, and therefore I can't answer any non-urgent PMs.

aww babe... are you okay? :(

aww babe... are you okay? :(

I'm okay. Just a few changes in life, namely my workload and responsibilities at work has increased (but I don't think I'll get a raise thanks to downsizing).

Plus I am trying to figure out the true nature of my affection to a certain girl (sorry, Stephanie, I wasn't talking about you. Because I know you're my buddy.) I don't know if I love her (cos ASAIK she's with someone else, and I'm not keen on competitions) or that I care for her so much I'm willing to change my routine lifestyle in hope of getting closer to her.

I want to tell her about my feelings so much, but I don't know how not to risk the current relationship - cos if she finds my affection to her intimidating, she'll once again distance herself from me and that'll only make things worse, for me at least. (But then, if she's happy, that's all it counts.)

Either way I'll even have less time to see movies, watch DVDs, shop and manage my life online. And my mind's so clouded at the moment I can't make any clear judgement/decision, or provide any professional/personal opinions.

Besides that, I'm okay. Don't get me wrong I'm glad for the changes I'm experiencing. I'm just not certain if I have the time to manage both my old life and the new life I'm hoping/expecting to well-manage.

You should always go for things or else you will spend the rest of your life wondering. I say, tell her how you feel. You just never know.. there are a 50 percent chance that she could feel the same way about you too....

Go for it, babe ;-)

And don't worry hun, I'm not hurt. I've kinda fallen for a guy myself.. :love:

You should always go for things or else you will spend the rest of your life wondering. I say, tell her how you feel. You just never know.. there are a 50 percent chance that she could feel the same way about you too....

But that'll just make things worse, cos she's already with someone else. If she do have feelings for me, be it the tracable amount, she may get the wrong idea and it'll tear her apart.

If there's anyone who should suffer, I'd rather be me than her, cos maybe I shouldn't have fallen for her in the first place, and that way it proves that I truly care for her.

I may just tell her that I cried for her pain one Saturday afternoon, but then I don't want the whole telling process sounds 'artificial' (like why should I tell her in the first place. What good does it do to her if she knows? If it'll confuse her I'd rather not tell. But right now I'm confused if telling her will get her confused.)

And don't worry hun, I'm not hurt. I've kinda fallen for a guy myself.. :love:

I think you've mentioned it in some thread... (I know my girls ;) )